# 83 - Have Tarot Cards Read

This time by a professional (remember mike :)

I went to the Maryland Renaissance Festival today and decided to have my cards read.

She started off with a very general reading, then I was allowed to ask more specific questions. The first card she flipped over was a bunch of rods all slanted in one direction in orderly fashion. This was taken to mean that all my best laid plans and decisions and everything with goals are now slowly falling into place. The second card (and I am trying to remember all of this in order) was The Fool. A feeling of adventerous, fun-loving character with a little dog nipping at the heels telling me to be careful with what I am doing but I am not going into any situation with rose-colored glasses - I really have been there, know what not to do, and am going in with eyes wide open, so while its okay to have people there telling me to be careful - in the end I know what I am doing. Third card was strength - which is a girl with my coloring holding the jaw of a lion pretty much opening, but not necesarrily by force - proving that I have grace under fire, that I am strong and can manage to be that way even when someone is growling at me. The fourth card showed two people bleeding and broken and clinging to each other in a sanctuary- showing that even when bad things happen, I still manage to fight my way back from them, but that I have often been a worrier and that is where I get in too deep - because I worry. There was also another coin card of someone making currency, so it said that I was looking for finanical security and that I am well on my way to obtaining that with prudence (so I think the cards were lying a bit).The last of the t - was this card with a bunch of swords hanging over someone's head - basically just saying there are some decisions that I have to make/will have to make and they tend to hang over my head a bit - or just that I juggle too much and need to take some time to balance the swords so they don't come crashing down. It also denotes that I need some time to myself to figure things out a bit. I shouldn't rush into making any decisions.

Then four more cards were laid out. The first was a strong example of my character - it showed a hand coming out of the clouds with a rod in his hand striking the ground just showing that not only am I fiery and independent, but full of bright ideas and creativity (hence like a light bulb lighting up). The second was a feeling of being stuck (prolly in a rut) and that my hands are tied and I need to give myself time to get my way out of it. The third card was death but portrayed not in a negative way - just saying that I always tend to want closure and closure with this feeling of being stuck. THe fourth was a man holding a bunch of rods in his hand and while it was similar to the first one - it just shows more that I balanace a lot and am trying to make it all work, but in a good tired way.

So then I asked like any normal human being to define a situation you could kind of say I am in right now concerning my love life. As she was going through the cards and rearranging them specifically, I couldn't help but wonder which guy in my life she was talking about or maybe its a mixture of both. The first row denoted the rods falling into place and the fool and strength characters - saying that things will fall into place soon and the guy I am falling for is the Fool - adventureous, fun-loving, but not very reliable - that I constantly have to make everything fun and new for him because at times he can be like a big kid - he can't plan ahead - it all has to be spur of the moment. And here am I with the strength, still fun and adventureous, but more serious and the nuturing one in the realtionship - but she said that its a good balance, that deep down we are a lot more alike than one might think (which leads me to think she's talking about the former more than the latter). The second row denoted some things having to do with the two people bleeding and clinging to each other - that perhaps we are going to battle with scars from the past on both our ends, but it will only bring us closer together. The security thing came into place too (not financial this time, but just feeling a sense of security with the one). So things were looking very positive, but the third row told me something that everyone dreads to hear - that while not positive or negative, it will take a long time to resolve itself. It could take as much as a year. It leads me to believe that it could be talking about both. Because its been a year and soon we might meet - and it might be time to bring it up again - what do we do now - where does it end if it never really began and how do I let mysef get over it - and even if it is with the other one it could still resolve into something positive - I like that were no foreshadowings of heartbreak or that no, he's not the once - it told me what my heart is telling me - to just take a chance, but to find closure, to not feel stuck and that a year or so from now - will be the time to take things seriously and that it doesn't matter because I am not in any hurry for things to resolve itself or to have that serious chat, but that I want to know that its out there. The reader said it was one of the more positive readings - some are more stressed or terrifying, but she had good feelings aobut mine.

The questions is - what do I believe?